Completely Homo Pudge And Ronny: Chapter 26

Pudge stayed up late that night, devouring all of the links Happy had given him, and the links from those links. It seemed like blasphemy, the thought that Pastor Alltruth could be wrong. But, encouraged by his mother, he tried to puzzle it out for himself, for the first time in his life. He hoped that God knew he was sincere, and that he would find the truth, whatever it was.
But it seemed too good to be true, that he wasn't sinning, by just being gay, and that God wanted him to find love and happiness--even with a man!
And when he thought of a man...well, he didn't want to think of Ronny, even if he eventually became "Side A" (no sex before marriage, same as with a straight marriage). Ronny was not even a believer! But Pudge did take heart from the fact that Ronny had apparently accepted Christ, at least once as a child. And he had had bad experiences from Pudge's friends. Perhaps he simply needed to know that God loved him.
But Pudge didn't want to alienate him by bringing it up. He didn't know what to do, here.
That picture nagged him. Was it a sign that he liked Pudge back? Or was Ronny just mocking him? Ronny had been very nice to him lately, like they were twelve years old again. He didn't want to believe that of him. And wouldn't Ronny be mocking himself, too?
He didn't know if this was a foolish choice, or not, but, after much prayer for guidance, and feeling strangely drawn to do this, Pudge dug out the card Ronny had given him, which he had carefully stashed away in his desk drawer. A quick reverse-directory search online gave him Ronny's address. It would be far too dangerous to talk to him at work, for both of them. And Pudge didn't know if he was letting his other motives get the best of him, but Ronny needed to hear that it was okay, whatever he was. And he felt he should talk to him, in person.


 Ronny, meanwhile, was doing some online research of his own over the next few days. He apparently still had the capacity to vigorously appreciate the girl-on-girl stuff, as well as the guy-on-girl stuff. He stayed hydrated and carefully wrote down his results--and then came the category that he dreaded.
This was it! This was what would possibly decide the course of the rest of his life. Something told him that if he opened that door--perhaps that closet door--just a little tiny bit, it would lead to more and more changes in his life. He could end up in gay Narnia, for all he knew.
But he felt he had to do it. He had to know! And he wasn't sure which outcome he really wanted the most. One was easiest, and safest, but the other...
Ronny knew that he couldn't just let it go, if he did feel this way. He couldn't just ignore that part of himself, deny that it existed--punish himself. But what would acting on these feelings lead to? Especially in regard to Pudge? (If Pudge even wanted him in return, that was.)
Trembling, Ronny knew he could not put this off forever. His heart pounding, he started playing the first video he could find.
Nothing happened at first. But then--then he was drawn into it, more and more. Both men were absolutely gorgeous, muscles glistening, huge cocks practically throbbing and quivering. Ronny began to throb, too.
He tried to fight the urge, but as they undressed on his computer screen, Ronny's hand slowly found its way downward. The black-haired young man started to suck on his blond companion's shaft, taking it so far down his throat that Ronny thought the man would throw up.
"Oh, God," Ronny moaned, closing his eyes. He imagined himself in that situation, between those two men, their sweaty bodies pressed against his own. He fell deeper into the fantasy, under its spell; this was one of the most intense fantasies he had ever had.
Then, between the two buff strangers, he saw Pudge, kneeling in front of him. Pudge was smiling mischievously, running his tongue along Ronny's stiff cock, taking it slowly into his mouth...
"Oh, oh God, oh God, oh--Pudge!" he found himself shouting at the last word.
Ronny came suddenly, in only a few seconds. Surprised, he cleaned up quickly, then turned off the video, now disgusted by their antics. His heart was pounding, he was shaking all over, he was scared--and he was gay.
The doorbell rang.